Christian Meltdown: Part 2

We left off on the last post with Sign #4. This post is the continuing of the last post. Hope it helps you.

5. You Miss Your Old Ways

It’s best to avoid this during your spiritual transition. It can really knock you off your path to even look back at the past. When you feel this nostalgic moment play your mind, pray. You may miss your old ways but I guarantee you that your old ways only would destroy you. God loved you enough to out you back on the right path towards your destiny.4

6. Detangling Nightmare

It can be hard to detangle your flesh from your spirit. Scripture does say that our flesh is weak but our spirit is strong. But if we are not careful, we can push our spirit aside and our flesh can overtake us. During this, be gentle with yourself and be patient. Change is not overnight and patience is the hardest part.

7. Too Many Rules

Sometimes there is so many rules that we seem to have to follow in our churches, standards or God’s word. Don’t overthink it. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself. We are STRIVING for perfection. That does not mean we are perfect.

8. Patience is Thin

Being patient is the hardest thing. Just faith it until you make it! You will get there on God’s time! God will get you though it!



The Christian Meltdown: Part 1

The other day, I was viewing different types of hairstyles on Pinterest when I came across a pin that was titled “Natural Hair Meltdown and How to Stay Motivated: 8 Signs”. Naturally, out of curiosity, I read this post and was shocked to apply these 8 signs to myself accurately. I then began to think, this applies also to my life. Am I suffering from a Christian Meltdown? How many people suffer this “meltdown” with their walk with God. Despite this post being about hair, it also made so much sense about our walks with God. So, I broke down the list into my own words about our walks with God. I hope this helps you today!

  1. Looking in the Mirror and Not seeing Growth

This was the very first sign of a “Christian meltdown”. If you think about it although, how many of us look in the mirror and think we are not good enough, we aren’t getting anywhere in our ministry, we aren’t seeing this change, we aren’t seeing this prayer answer. Then those thoughts lead to God doesn’t love me or why am I even doing this?


You are always growing. Focus instead on healthy growth in God. Proper prayer regimen and scripture practices foster your growth.

2. Tired of Trying New Ways of Doing Things and Failing

When we make up our minds to live for God, the change is not an overnight process. Let me reiterate; THE CHANGE IS NOT AN OVERNIGHT PROCESS.


However, the fun thing about being a new convert is you get to find your own way of worshiping and building your OWN PERSONAL relationship with God.

Take this opportunity to get to know God and yourself. Introduce one thing at a time and don’t try to do everything at once. Try prayer, fasting, and reading the work in different styles, techniques or order. You could surprise yourself. Remember: Everyone’s walk is different with God.


3. Being Afraid of New  Changes

When living for God, we often tend to look at someone else’s walk and compare their walk to our own. No. We should not do this.

Don’t spend all your time daydreaming about someone else’s walk. I promise, you don’t know what they have/had to battle to get where they are. I can advise you, you probably wouldn’t have been able to handle what they went through to get to where they are. Everyone’s walk and battles are designed just for them. Focus on your walk, get to know it, and give yourself the chance to fall in love with it. Besides, it is a walk with just you and Jesus. Look for inspiration not similarity.

4. Too Much Shedding and Dryness

On our walks, we lose “friends”, we have “dry spells” where we feel all alone in a desert, we seem vulnerable most times.

During this, make sure you moisturize and hydrate yourself and your walk whenever it is needed with the Word, prayer and fasting. You are now responsible for your walk with God, not anyone else. Try encouraging yourself during these times when it seems the hardest to pray.


Well, I hope this Part 1 of a Christian Meltdown helps you today. Will be posting Part 2 soon! Love you guys and keep your heads up!


Don’t Give Up Yet!


James 1:2-4: “ My brethren, count it all JOY when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing this, that the trying of your FAITH worketh patience.
But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.“


In these verses, James is basically telling us to be joyful during trials because they teach us patience.

How exactly can you do that? Trials are not fun!

During the trial, remember that at the end of the trail you will have a stronger character in patience and faith. It also leads to spiritual maturity throughout the journey of your trials.

Today, I decided to take on things in a whole different way. Well, to be exact I decided this over the Labor Day weekend (I hope everyone had a BLESSED one!) and it started with the thing that has been keeping me busy.

School. . .

School is a huge blessing in my life for many personal reasons. For one, it has taken me TWO YEARS to even be able to go! Many tears, prayers, pleads and legal consultation has been done in the course of those two long, dreadful years. The thing that was holding me back was my age, both of my parents and a lot of discouragement from myself. I mean, who wouldn’t be discouraged? TWO YEARS of depression and to be honest anger that the door wasn’t opening. But God is an on-time God and His ways are always better than ours. I can guarantee this because all those prayers and tears turned into a tremendous blessing. I am now currently a full-time student pursuing a Business degree and I am glad I did not completely give up and still had my faith in God that the door would open.

But, anyway, back to the main thing, I have decided recently to take things in life differently. Why? Because life is what you make it. It’s short, bittersweet and to the point. So, why can’t we be? Life was beginning to be overwhelming and a little bit discouraging. There was a point in time in the past few weeks where I have cried and almost given up on school. But if it wasn’t for God reminding me that I can do this thing, I would have completely given in under pressure.

So, what did I do?

I reorganized everything. I put the hardest classes first and put the easy classes last. Lord, how much that changed everything. The classes that were overwhelming became ALOT easier. When I realized how much that changed things for school, I begin to imagine what if I start putting what is hard for me to do daily first and the easy stuff last?

Prayer, fasting, and reading the word can be hard sometimes. Especially if things are not going the way you thought it would.

If you’re not too careful temptations can creep in to whisper give up in your ear. It’s so much easier for the enemy to speak to you when you are down, depressed, overwhelmed, stressed and oppressed because many people can start to second- guess God’s plan for them, the prayers that has been made, and even the tears shed.

Moral is, we would be less likely to give in and give up if we wake up each day and see how BLESSED we are rather than how STRESSED we are. And doing this helps us endure (strength) until God opens the door.

I really hope this touched you today, and remember God has a purpose and plan for your life. Love y’all ♥


The Amusement Park of Life

 So, life for me has begun to get busy. So, please forgive me for not posting in a while. However, in the midst of all the ups and downs and the floods, this blog was on my mind through it all. I asked myself, what could I possibly talk about? Post about? What would even make sense? After so long, what could possibly catch the attention of my followers? Do I even still have an audience? And in my concluded solution for all these questions, I asked myself, does it even really matter? Time is what you make it. Life is what you make it. Of all the things that has been going on in my life, I was seriously worried about a blog and if anyone would even read it and what their opinions would be. Funny, huh?

So, in this post, I would like to talk about the roller coasters of life. That’s right. The common saying, “Life is like a roller coaster.” is going to be manipulated in the post, often.

Life is like a roller coaster. . . 


There couldn’t be a more true saying to sum up life. Better yet, life is like an amusement park of roller coasters and you choose which one you want to ride. Ocassionally, the ride you choose turns out to be the outcome you expected. But if you really think about it, the ride you choose is either more than you expected or less than you expected. Either you build yourself up for the ride to be disappointed or you underestimate the ride and it turns out to be more thrilling. In some cases, it can be exactly what you anticipated, making you want to ride it again.

Sometimes, you have to ask yourself, although, is the ride really worth it?


What rollercoaster out of all the rides in the park is really worth the money for my ticket to ride?

The answer is, my friend, living for God is the best ride of life you can expect back what you put in.

Is it easy? Um, no because God’s ways are bigger than ours. Smarter than ours. BETTER than ours. From afar the ride looks simple but when you get on it , there are going to be twists and turns. The ride might get so intense you might cry a little, pray a little, repent a little or even want to get off. BUT, is it worth it? Very much yes. Why? Because out of all the guessing which ride is going to be satisfactory, God’s comes with a guarantee. A guarantee that at the end we will enter Heaven. In the end, there will be no more worries, stresses, bills, people’s opinions, hurt, depression, fear and the list goes on. In the end, it is GUARANTEED, life abundantly forever with love, joy and most of all God. All those turns and jolts will be worth it. And you will get back what you put in and then some.

So, I encourage you, through this post today to just try Jesus. Don’t underestimate the ride and don’t stop the ride because you’re scared, worried or just plain out tired. Everything we go through for God is more than well worth it in the end. We just have to hold on and stay strong until the ride is over.

Love y’all.


Life is Like a Box of Chocolate: Full of Different Opportunities

Sitting in our living room, listening to worship music with Crybaby, my thoughts swirl into a cloud of goals in my mind. . .

We all want something out of this life we live. We want to live for something, leave behind something, achieve something or all of the above. We want the absolute best out of this life while we lie it. We want to do incredible things. Things that make our heart leap and our adrenaline fuel our excitement. Although one question ponders my mind; are we going about it the right way?

If God is the center of everything, are we putting Him first in everything we do to succeed? 

That question leads to another one; are we laying too much of our treasures down here on earth rather than in the Heavenly kingdom?

We have to survive someway, somehow. Agreed. But sometimes we get so caught up in our lives that we forget about about our destiny in the life after life or better yet the one who gives us both life here on earth and someday in Heaven.

God never forgets about us but could we honestly say that we never forget about Him?

We wake up daily with our good friends mercy and grace. (Psalms 23:6 KJV) Friends that are unseen to the eye but seen through our first breath in the mornings.

It was God’s blood that shed so that we could live the life we live today. But how often do we take a step back and breathe that in? Thank Him for that? I am as guilty as the next person because we are all human; flesh, but there comes a point in your life that you have to realize that there’s more to this life than what we all see, feel and hear. (Matthew 26:41 KJV) That’s why we have to walk by faith daily and not by our sight. (2 Corinthians 5:7 KJV) Where God leads us, He will always provide.(Isaiah 58:11 KJV) He will always make a way even when we doubt that there is any way for us to go. (Isaiah 43:16 KJV) He will never send you somewhere that He has not already provided a ram in the thicket. (Genesis 22:13 KJV)

Everyday we wake up is a new opportunity to accept God’s perfect will for our lives, to worship Him with our whole heart and to thank Him, even for the things we do not see. (Psalm 95 KJV)

So, tell me, will you seize your grand opportunity today?


How blessed are you?

Like, really. How blessed are you? I can list some blessings for you. You woke up this morning. You had the privilege to breathe in the morning air and bask in the morning sunshine reminding you of the new day. You most likely took a shower (hopefully), put on clothes (hopefully) and ate some breakfast and drank some coffee. So, with just those few things listed, how blessed are you?

Everyday is a blessing. Everyday is full of blessings. Everything on earth is a blessing. From the trees that provides us with enough oxygen to the fertile grounds that provides us with enough fertility for us to plant our food sources. The butterflies and bees are even blessings as they help pollinate the beautiful flowers we get to enjoy. We just have to sometimes SLOW DOWN and actually take a breath and realize every blessing in our lives.

The biggest blessing that we can have, although, is LOVE.

  • Love – a four letter love that has so much meaning to it.

It can mean from the way someone looks at you to a small silent gesture that someone gives you.

  • Love is a powerful word. It can breathe life into a lonely person and it can restore someone’s soul.
  • Love. A word of beauty. Often associated with beautiful flowers; roses for example.
  • Love. You can never have too much of love. You can never give too less of love.

This is why we should try to spread love any and every way possible that we can. You never know how much you would brighten up someone’s day if you just give them a small gesture of love. You never know how much a blessing you could be to someone.

God blessed us with Love when He sent his son to die for each and every single one us. (John 3:16 KJV) Despite nationality, race, sex, sexual preferences, our mistakes and many more things that could defer us from the next person. He didn’t judge us when He got up on that cross. Did He really want to die for us, though? No. But He loved us enough to do so. To save our souls from a damned eternity because in His eyes we are worth it.-

Love can be contagious. And it is. When God is practically love and you cannot argue with the truth, love can spread.


So today, love thy brother. Love thy sister. ( 1 John 4:21 KJV) Do not judge them. (Matthew 7:1-6 KJV) Love them. Because that is the GREATEST blessing you can give someone.



♥ Love ♥




Ghosts of the Past

You’re not suppose to live in the past.

Yes, I know…

The Bible even says says so.

But what about when the past comes and haunts you every day of your life? Some days are easier than others but. . .  Jeez it can get tiresome. I’m tired of the enemy reminding me where I have been and everything that I have done. But I will tell you this, sometimes it does help me remember where I came from and how I got to where I am now. How I was once lost but now can see sorta thing, ya know? How God took someone who was completely written off by others as a failure and gave them the victory over life.

Most days, I am thankful for the memories, flashbacks, or whatever you would call the past events from a dark past. Some days they can come at the most inconvenient time of my life where I feel that I am in a valley, but that’s okay. Why would the enemy fight us on our up days anyhow when he can just kick us while we are already down?

Luckily, God is in our corner and reminds us through His word that anything is possible through Him. (Philippians 4:13 KJV)

With that in mind, we can only take the enemies’ kicks for so long before we get back up and fight back with the power of God through prayer, fasting and His word. In a way however, it’s the fights like these that prepares us for the bigger battles in life.

So, when the enemy comes in like a complete flood, reminding you of who you use to be and what you use to do. Remember, the key words are USED TO BE. When you are a child of God, the use to be does not matter anymore. For any person and/or spirit of the enemy that tries to remind you of your “Used to Be”.

Just simply smile, nod and explain that you are now a child of God through His son Jesus Christ who just so happened to looked past your “used to be” and into your heart and found you worthy enough to love and die on the cross for and now you receive daily mercy and grace through His blood.

Then just simply carry on with your life.

SN: Also, out of billions and billions of people in the world, DO NOT let one person get you down. And certainly put that spirit under your feet with gentle prayer.


A Wounded Soul

Have you ever been so hurt by someone that you want to hate them but the love of God in your heart won’t let you?

Yeah, I think at some point in everyone’s life they have had that moment. And if you’ve been through any mess like the next person, you would know what it feels like to still love them and care about them.  You also try not to think about that person but  sometimes, every corner you turn, someone is asking you about that person or better yet, something reminds you of that person. Ya know? Like “Oh, my day was doing so great until you asked me that question. Not like I’m hurting or anything. It’s absolutely no problem!” or “Why does that pizza have to remind me of the late night movies we use to watch and the jokes we use to share?”

Hm, so what do you do?

It’s simple. You heal. You still smile. You still pray for that person. Above all, you still love and care for that person because it is a completely normal thing to do. I mean, it is scripture, right?

Don’t carry around loads of luggage for someone else’s mistakes. Let God deal with that battle. Speaking of which, last but not least. Focus on God because like previously stated, it’s not your battle. That person has a mind of their complete own. If they know better with some sense in their head, don’t worry about their view or opinion of yourself.

♥ God’s love is what reflects who you are. ♥

Even when we don’t see it in ourselves and the enemy tries to point out the flaws. You are what God says you are. No ifs, ands or buts about it. He saw something in your heart to choose YOU. And mind you, many are called but FEW are chosen. (Matthew 22:14 KJV) He loved you then and He certainly loves you now. So, focus on God when the enemy is shooting arrows your way. If Peter never would have took his eyes off of Jesus while walking on the water, he wouldn’t have almost drowned. And even then, God picked him up out of the water.(Matthew 14:22-33 KJV) So, heal. In your own time. But don’t forget, you will heal so much better with the help of Jesus.

Pick up the pieces and keep living. Keep loving.